What can I say about my favorite person in the world? I don't think there's enough words in the English language. But I'll do my best, the bond I had with my grandmother was one that only Jesus could've given us as a gift. I was her pet and she was my rock. I am unique looking to say the least, covered fully head to toe in tattoos,a tulip amongst roses she would say. And yet I never felt scared to be who I wanted to be I never felt alone when I saw her look at me with such love. When I had a bad heart break she actually said "well maybe it was my fault, maybe it's because I just hugged and loved you too much so that's what you expected" at that very moment I couldn't be more honored to be raised by the most loving, affectionate, caring, beautiful and wonderful human being such as my Mamma. Because I deserved to be loved that way because she saw in all of us not just me all of my siblings and cousins that's what we all deserve. You know my biggest faults are being to generous and not being able to manage my money because it give it all away to everyone else ha sounds familiar hahaha. I will miss looking at her and playing it off that nothing is wrong but she could just tell she get it out of me. I miss her "I love you Rosebud" "You're beautiful" "Let me hear your music." "Christine stop it everything is going to be ok, don't you trust your Mam's?" "Oh don't listen to them will you please," but most of all I miss "I love you so much oooooooo I can't take it gimmie a kiss!" "Lots and lots "! Or the funny comments "Who's your girlfriend? I'd like to meet her is she pretty? I bet she is you DAWG!!!!!!!" HAHA the things I won't ever miss is watching my grandmother lose her dignity while getting sicker but her strength never ever left that woman's body or mind. She was my angel on Earth and I'm not afraid or ashamed to say I want her back. But not the way she was. Not at the end. If I had to spend every single day like I did for those three years over again I would. God blessed me with me having the greatest woman as my grandmother and idol. I am honored that when people say I have an amazing heart they compare it to hers. Because that is a rare and beautifully created gift from God. I love you Mams not one day goes by I don't cry, think, dream, and of course sing our song Glenn Miller's Chattanooga Choo Choo. Be with my big sister Val's been patiently waiting to get her turn with Mamma clause haha. I love you. Lots n lots